Thursday, May 31, 2007

Am Angry............!!!!!!


A recent incident deeply disturbed me…an uncle of mine had passed away after fulfilling all his obligations and living a fulfilling life.As is customary all the elaborate rituals spread over 13 days for the onward journey of the soul, were over and we were just sitting around and chatting . This particular aunt was a very chirpy and practical person and had coped very well thus far with her loss. She casually remarked, ‘ I must from now on remember not to wear a bindi …have been so used to doing it all these years, I must not do anything stupid’.

A remark that shocked and hit me real hard! What was so far a part of her daily routine and attire, was suddenly termed out of bounds and considered a great crime.

What are we making our women folk go through under the garb of tradition and culture?


Imagine ever since the day she is born, a girl is used to wearing a bindi and flowers on her head. And what right do we have to tell her to discontinue this practise once her life partner is dead and gone. Am not here to argue as to what the men folk give up when their wives die…that’s a senseless discussion.

But its bad enough that you have to cope up with the loss of a dear one ...on top of it we interfere in their day to day life and impose restrictions on them which only further the grief by pointing out to the loss even more distinctly!

Gone are the days where we had the extremes of sati or women having to shave off their heads and wear a white Saree…. We claim to have reached the status of a super developed nation and where do our women stand?


And I partly blame the women too…they have dinned it into their own heads that they have to follow certain practices setting aside their own likes and dislikes. Given a choice I think most women would love to carry on their normal lives but are so scared of what the society will say ! Bull shit to such a society I would say …


If at all anything is given up in the memory of the departed soul, it should be something very personal to the surviving partner, done in a voluntary manner … not something done for the sake of some stupid custom.

But I guess a reformation can come around only if women put their minds to it… I tried it so hard with my own mom when my dad passed away but totally failed!

Monday, May 28, 2007

Passing Thoughtssssssssss..........



Disappointments are like Medicines...

You can't bear to have them even in small doses...

Want to gulp them all down in one go and

make them disappear and get back on track.

But it never happens that way...

medicines take their own sweet time to work.

Yeah...with a whole lot of side effects too!

No one loves them yet have to accept that

at some point the Doc prescribes them for you.



So it is in life.

The Doc called GOD up there prescribes them [ Disappointments]

for you once in a way.With all its side effects...



Medicines teach you to appreciate the value of Good Health.

Disappointments help you take stock of life and appreciate happiness.

Learn to take them as a process to rebuild your strength...

Make you a better person!

believe me ...it works!!!!

I AM BEAUTIFUL…SO ARE YOU!



Why do most of us always have the feeling that we are not perfect and that we need to

change? Is it because people around us are constantly pointing out to the negatives in us,
ignoring the positive points. Well if so, then I think something is drastically wrong with
them…and with you too for letting them do it!
I hate anyone comparing themselves with an‘other’ person and yearning to be like them.

You are special in your own way – realize that!

If you were like the other person with all his good qualities life would be so boring. So what if

you are not perfect? No one is!

So what if you are short tempered? So what if you have no aptitude for numbers? So what if


you are obsessed with only good food and are not good in general knowledge? So what if you
are not tech savvy?

Isn’t it that which makes life interesting for you and all those around you! Isn’t it that which

makes you so unique?

But don’t get me wrong…. If someone is overweight and obese and heading for trouble health
wise, I don’t want them to turn around and say, ‘ Hey am special! That’s the way I am’.

There’s nothing special in hogging away to glory and being obese…you had better get that
bottom of yours moving and jog to the nearest park!

It’s your basic personality that we are talking about!

LOVE YOURSELF FOR WHAT YOU ARE!

LIKE YOURSELF FOR WHAT YOU ARE!

Because if you don’t like what you see, no body else will either!

You are special in your own way!

You are beautiful in your way!

Permit experiences to smoothen the rough edges in your character to make you a complete
person. But don’t chisel yourself away to try and make a new ‘you’…coz one fine day you
may not recognize yourself …more often then not it could leave you disfigured and
distressed.

And why should you try and impress anyone?

Let people accept you for what you are…if they don’t I don’t think you ever needed them!

I think I am a beautiful person…and I think ‘you’ who is reading this now is beautiful too…!

Cheers to a beautiful life!



Monday, March 12, 2007

THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVORITE THINGS ! ! !

Blog 7

All of us have a whole lot of favorite things that brings a bright smile to our face each time we think of them… well here are a few…no… many of my favorite things!!!!!
Do let me know if you share any of them ….

SIGHT

The rising sun spreading its wings of fire on the horizon as the hues of the vast expanse of the sky and the deep blue sea merge. …Would give anything to view this magnificent scene everyday!!!
The sight of cute little puppies playing with each other… gets you smiling even before you realize it…
Driving down the highway, with lush green fields on either side swaying gently in the breeze…. if that isn’t cool …what is!!! Better still if you are traveling parallel to a railway track and you get to see a train speeding alongside….and you tend to go faster to keep up with it…
The sight of a beautiful peacock displaying the myriad colors on its feathers in full and strutting gracefully…awesome!! I say awesome because one has to be very lucky to get a chance to view this wonderful sight!
Have you watched the shadows dancing in candle light when you light up candles during power cuts… unfortunately we are too busy cursing the EB department that we forget to notice these small beautiful things!
The beautiful flowers lined up at the florist …. Given a chance I would love to have them all at home!!


SMELL


Nothing to match the smell of sandal agarbathis [or any agarbathi for that matter…come to think of it I also loooooooove the smell of camphor..] first thing in the morning…. Makes you send a silent prayer to the BIG BOSS out there, even if you weren’t planning to …..Divine !!!!

Imagine you are walking down the road, a little tired, when the smell of freshly roasted popcorn hits your nose…. Your nose is sure to make a u-turn and blindly walk towards the source of the smell….Yummy!

The aroma of freshly brewed South Indian filter coffee first thing in the morning…. better still if someone were to hand it over to you…hehe…Bliss…sheer bliss!!!

The smell that wafts through the air as the first drizzle hits the earth on a warm summer day …mmmmmm…. Heavenly!!

The smell of Johnsons baby powder on babies after a bath.

As kids whenever new clothes were bought it was always nice to take them out and smell them from time to time…and wait for the day when you could wear them! Exciting !!!
Guess these days kids miss out on all these since they always have everything in plenty…so the charm of waiting/longing for something is lost !!


SOUND


Listening to soothing melodious strains of a flute at the break of dawn.

Listening to your favorite songs when you travel long distances by car …makes travel such a pleasure!

I love the sound of our National Anthem any time any place… makes you feel very emotional and proud…a sense of belonging!

The squeals and peals of laughter of little kids… enough to light up anyone’s face!

I just love the sound of bhangra beats and the beats of the Chendai Drums in Kerala temples… makes you want to dance wherever you are!

RANDOM THINGS THAT GIVE YOU A NICE FEELING….

Walking down the beach barefoot and feeling the grains of sand slip through your feet….

Wearing just-ironed clothes and you can still feel the warmth on your skin…

Making paper boats and letting them afloat on the water on a rainy day…

Eating roasted peanuts with a hot cup of tea on a dark cloudy evening as you wait for the downpour to hit anytime…

Surprise someone with a gift when they least expect it…

Finding a 100 rupee note in an old purse that you chance upon during one of those
cleaning expeditions…

Looking through old photographs after a long gap and going bla bla over them…

Monday, February 12, 2007

COFFEE DATE WITH KIDDOS !!!!

It finally happened....a visit to the favorite joint of my boys, where they hang out with their friends!!

Had heard so much about this place that i badly wanted to have a look for myself...on what was so attractive about it that it drew these kids there so often! Of course the idea was entirely theirs and they called it 'a date with mom'.

We had been planning for this rendezvous for a long time and i had been given a dress code too...[ was told that the average age of people coming there was between 17 and 30] ....because mummy dear had to look smart and not ancient... sari was a strict no no ... salwar was passable...but Jeans would be perfect !

But when it did happen it was nothing like we had planned... i landed up there in a saree...hehe...that too in a silk saree straight from a wedding!!

This place is a coffee shop kind-of-place called Mocha situated in one of the more posh localities of Chennai. It's a nice two storeyed building with great interiors. On the ground floor you have the non-smoking zone and the first floor is a compulsory smoking zone with Chinese decor all around. Smoking here refers to Hookah. Every table is set with a Hookah and you have to pay for it whether you smoke or not ....of course set with different aromas like mint,strawberry, apple ...not the tobacco ones!

In the garden outside you have several compartmentalised seating arrangements set in the midst of pebbled pathways interspersed with flowing water and fountains. One couldn even see an old hand rickshaw imaginatively set to be part of the seating arrangement...

During the first ten minutes that i was there it was fun to watch the boys trying hard make me feel good about the place...well they didn't need to ... I was impressed with the ambiance...it wasn't a shady joint but a fun place where people could meet up and enjoy a good chat...and then i was let into all the details of their outings there!

How, at times when they were short of cash [ yeah... every one got limited pocket money ! ], they would order the cheapest drink on the menu and then keep topping it up with ice just to prolong their time there; about the times, when they ran into [financial] trouble, when one of their friends, tried to be chivalrous by offering to pay up for old [girl] friends they bumped into and how he got clobbered later by these boys for trying to be an over-enthusiastic pig ....and many more interesting tales !!!


I was also told as to what was in and what was out clothes-wise/ slang- wise ....Oh my god... it was so much fun to have a peek into their world!

For any one who thinks Chennai is conservative, check out this place . It was a common sight to see many girls smoking... not Hookah, but cigarrettes! If that was one extreme, it was a pleasant sight to see one mother accompanying her teen aged daughters and having a good time with them !


And i was glad that my kids were open enough to tell me what to expect and had no hassles or embarrassment about me sitting there with them. In fact i am so tempted to take my own friends there, the next time we want to meet and chat!

I know many of my own friends are shocked at my attitude and feel that i am giving my kids a long rope under the garb of being progressive! If you consider hanging out in coffee shops as being progressive , i think its a big joke.... just as it is, if you think that they are likely to go wayward by hanging out in joints like these.

And many may not approve my saying this ....Let the kids have their share of fun. Give them the right values and guide them.But dont deny them the joy of these times spent with their friends by being over cautious or over reacting! Bad influences are there every where....Be approachable and open to them. Create comfort levels so that they feel free to approach you with their problems!

Try to be a part of their world and don't deny them something just because you did not or could not access it when you were young ! If there was a place like this when i was in college 25 years ago, am sure i would have loved to hang around and would have hated my parents if they hadn't let me !! May be its easier for me to say that because both of them are boys....but even if they had been girls am sure i would have let them have all the fun in the world!

Look at their world through their eyes ... and they would willingly see it through yours too !!!

Sunday, February 11, 2007

MY INSPIRATION!!!!

Have you felt the cool gentle breeze caress your cheeks on a warm sunny evening? Have you taken in the wonderful smell that wafts through the air when the first drizzle hits the earth? Has your heart skipped a beat when you are feeling down in the dumps and you suddenly hear your favorite song being played? Or the wonderful sight of the rising sun spreading its rays on the horizon set against the background of the deep blue sea…..well, you cant describe these feelings can you ?? Except that it stirs something wonderful in you and brings an involuntary smile to your face

Well …this is precisely the feeling Narasimhalu evokes in you the first time you meet him. That charming smile and his energetic greeting knock you flat even before you try and collect yourself from the shock of seeing his physical disability. The myriad expressions that flit across his face as he tries to convey his thoughts to you are just amazing.

I was blessed [yes … I feel any one who meets him is truly blessed..he is God’s own child ! ] with the good fortune of meeting this wonderful gentleman in the year 2002 when my husband and I had the opportunity to organize a week long exhibition of his paintings at Hotel Ambassador Pallava at Chennai, through our Rotary Club.

I will never forget the efforts of the people who helped us in making this event a great success. Ace director Mani Ratnam and Actor Revathy inaugurated the event and spent a long time viewing the paintings and bought some too! Half the paintings were sold within an hour of the inauguration and ND TV did an exclusive on Narasimhalu… Yes… we went all out to publicize this event like fame-hungry dogs and never felt ashamed about it!

Because we felt Narasimhalu deserved every bit of attention he was getting and much more too!!

Orphaned as a child and afflicted with Cerebral Palsy, Narasimhalu can only use his feet and paints with his feet and toes!!!! The canvas is his world. And that’s not all… he does amazing embroidery too!!

Just watching him at work sends you into stunned silence and you feel overcome with emotions! Despite suffering from a debilitating physical handicap his zest for life astounds you!

He loves Nature which predominantly forms the subject of his paintings and uses acrylic, watercolors and….hold your breath…the computer too! Oh yes he is adept at using the computer [Adobe Photoshop and Flash] and meddles around with electronic gadgets. He resides at the home run by the Andhra a Mahila Sabha at Adyar and is a great source of joy and inspiration to all around. You can see him zooming around on a skateboard with amazing control with a smile that never disappears!!

We take so many things for granted in life and go around cribbing and complaining…. Shame on us for doing that when there are people like Narasimhalu taking on life with grit and determination!!!

I often feel that I should visit him more frequently and spend time with him but always find myself totally depressed and angry with God after every such visit… why did he have to go through so much???? That innocent smile lingers long in your mind….very long !!

Ever Made A Fool Of Yourself ??

Am sure this has happened to some of you ….I mean situations where you make a complete fool of your self!!! Or am I the only weird one with such experiences??
All said and done I think it’s worth sharing …at least for the humor it evokes…!

It was one of those days when it suddenly dawns on you, that you have been postponing a whole lot of petty work and suddenly they loom large, in front of you, with a narrowing deadline. Hard pressed for time and armed with a long ‘things-to-be-done list’ I set out one morning with a determined look on my face!

And was I glad to find an empty parking slot at a vantage point from where I could walk all around and finish all my work…..!!!!!! Thinking I had got off to a good start, I spent the next couple of hours ticking things off my list with a mighty pleased smile.

I realized it was noon by then and I still had some work at the bank that had to be completed before banking hours closed at half past twelve, it being a Saturday!!!
So I hurried to the car and inserted the keys to open the door and lo behold.... it refused to open!!

I rechecked if I had the right keys and yes I had! I tried again and it still wouldn’t budge…. A few more tries and I lost my temper and gave the car a good piece of my mind with the choicest of words… I aimed a nice hard kick at the tyre and eeeeks…. only to wince in pain the next minute with a broken toenail.


I quickly looked around to see if any one was a witness to my sudden tantrum and to my [bad] luck, sure enough, there was this guy standing on the pavement with a curious smile on his face.

I looked away cursing him under my breath, wishing he’d go away and tried once again to open the door faking a calmness I hardly felt …Much to my annoyance the guy came towards me and enquired, ’Having problems , maam ?’.

‘The door is not opening,’…I said.

‘Perhaps you don’t have the right keys”, he said grinning.

By then I was at my wits’ end and wanted to wipe that grin off his face….he was smartly dressed but …was he some kind of a conman ??

‘I can manage…its none of your business!’ I curtly said.

‘Oh yes it is…’, he said, now clearly laughing, ‘especially since its my car you're meddling with!’

It took a few seconds for his words to sink in!

Oh my god!!! What was I doing??? Trying to open someone else’s car with my keys!!! But it was a grey Zen…

I looked up to find my car parked right next to this one. In my hurry to get to the bank I hadn’t realized that another grey Zen had been parked next to mine and had gladly assumed that the first car I set my eyes on was mine!!

How could I ???? He saw me kicking his car and no wonder he that funny smile on his face …what an idiot I must have looked like!

What followed was a profuse flow of apologies from my side while he tried his best to make me feel at peace and reassure me. I had never felt so stupid in my life!

I just fled the scene and headed back home with a valuable lesson…never assume things and check the car number every time before you try to unlock it!!!